From the stress of the project due in two hours to the struggle of trying to strengthen ones iman, life can get crazy. This is the account of one Muslimahs attempts, triumphs, and countless failures in her quest to balance college life.

Friday, October 29, 2010

What is there to fear when Allah(swt) is with you always?

Many a time I find myself puzzled when I see people worrying about the simplest of problems. To an outsider the whole idea seems illogical. It's common sense right... Allah is our provider and the most merciful one at that. So really... What do we have to worry about?
It's easy when your the outsider but when it's you biting your nails the shaytan comes in and takes over. You forget that life changing concept and worry away an hour,a day, maybe a month even?
We human beings must be Terribly self absorbed to believe that we have a right to worry. What will it get us? Are we so dense as to believe that worry might change the outcome?

In the beginning of this week I had a huge project due for my core design class. The project is worth 20% of our overall grade and I was a nutcase. I kept thinking to myself that this project was going to be the death of me. For three weeks I spent hours and hours working. The day before it was due as I sat in my studio staring at my final design I couldn't help but smile. It was awesome... I'm not boasting... I had never done anything of this scale digitally before and i couldn't get over how cool it looked.
When I got back home later that night I kept thinking about how much I worried. Subhanallah I was so easily controlled by my fear I never stopped to think,Allah is in control...what is there to fear?

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Allah sends us little gifts all the time

Like I mentioned in my first post, I spend a good hour ever day stuck in traffic and Today was no different. As I was sitting there lost in my own head, I noticed a plant by the side of the road. Being a design student makes you look for certain things like imperfections and mismatched patterns and colors... And so I analyzed and searched for something that didn't fit only to realized that... This little plant was absolutely beautiful and perfect. Oranges and reds mixed with a purple I had never seen on any flower before. I could think of nothing else to say than subhanallah; Allah has given us endless gifts of beauty and yet we see only the minimal and even then, are looking for any glitch in the system. But there are no glitches in Allah(swts) system...
... then someone honked at me and I realized i was blocking traffic :)

Bismillah Alrahman Alraheem

Blog 1

It's days like this one that make me certain Allah has created the coffee bean strictly for me. Last night I slept at 3'oclock for no reason at all and woke up late....only to walk out of my house and into near monsoon weather... Yay!
Anyway, so here is a little about me.
I'm a young American muslimah and, having lived here most of my life my culture is that of an American. I wouldn't call my level of iman great for it is barely hanging on. I cover well, i don't mingle with the opposite gender, but i struggle with myself constantly and, while i know my battle is not in vain, at times my armor does crack.  
I'm a college freshman (class of 2014?   2016?  Maybe even 2017?) studying industrial design. I'm part of a #? year program leading to my masters in I-Design Inshallah. My first two months of college can be summed up in one word...MORE.
More work, more fun,more stress, more food (not a good thing), more traffic, and my least favorite, more awkward situations. (Just so you know, my life is defined by awkwardness and irony, which makes it very entertaining for anyone but me)
For now that's about it but Inshallah next time the real stuff starts... The stress, the struggle to strengthen my iman, the social life (or lack thereof), the parental expectations, and the moments that make life interesting.